And a dear friend of mine messaged me and said she really loved catching up with my blog and she loves how I express my emotions and that really just made me so so happy and tomorrow is December so I might as well just write.
Wow, okay, so I've been thinking about what it means to truly be an inspiration and how, we, as individuals can express our views in a way that shoots out of our hearts like lightbeams into other people's dark corners of their skin. And how something that can be so gently rubbed on the surface of a conflict can bring light and comfort and the Holy Spirit to a situation.
I mean, basically since last time I've really written a post like this, I've (most likely) decided on a college to go to and I won Homecoming Queen at my high school (#What) and I've fallen out of love with a person and I've gone to six concerts since the school year started. Life be cray. And I'm such a late bloomer on this, but I'm probably (hopefully) getting my license on Wednesday. #RaiseAGlassToPass
Okay, so I remember sitting on the chair in my room on a senior ditch day and my mom called me from the middle school (she's a registrar there) and excitedly said, "Guess who's nominated for Homecoming Queen?" And I just said, "OH. MY. GOSH." into the phone. Obviously, I was nominated and obviously I was surprised. (I think my mom was excited because of the fact she was nominated at her school her senior year. So was my aunt. And my grandma. Runs in the fam bam.)
I was confused how someone like me-who didn't particularly fit into that group of people, who isn't super outgoing or social or athletic- was actually nominated. I sifted through my friends' answers, "Well you're just friends with everyone!" "Everyone likes you!" "You're so nice to everyone!", but none of these seemed completely accurate. I never figured out the answer, but I'd like to believe that me winning Homecoming Queen wasn't so much about my "popularity", but more about me as an inspiration, an encourager, and a light to others.
I don't necessarily have regrets, because I think all of my bad moments have led me to the person I am today and I am thankful for that. But I wish I talked to my youth leader about how (and if I could) to be an inspiration in the wake of me being nominated and winning what is so inaccurately seen as a popularity contest. I never did. But if I inspired, you, if you are reading this, then I would be so incredibly happy. I believe in the concept of unity, not conformity. If you are like the world, then you will never change it. If you help an individual see your light, then they can pass their light to another. In this sense, we are unified. We are one, while still retaining our individuality.
So, without becoming too hippy-ish, I believe in this concept. I believe by letting the Holy Spirit guide our steps, we become fulfilled. We are living our lives to our fullest potential, whether that is staying in a small house raising a family in a town in Kansas, to going to college in Oregon and buying a beach house and not getting married, to traveling the world on mission trips, to whatever and wherever. God's plan for us is so beautiful and so amazing that we can't comprehend what will happen until it already has; until we look back and say, "Wow, I was in a rough spot, but here I am now. It gets better."
My goal is to be a light.
I know from personal experience that people disappoint. You hear, "When I go off to college, I won't forget you." You believe they'll come back stronger: different, yet stronger. Yet, when you see them again, they're the person they said they'd never become. Are you really living your life according to who you tell people you are? Are you going to church on Sundays, only to be vomiting up vodka in a bathroom stall the next night? Are you telling your youth pastor you're getting closer to God, while you hook up with girls on weekends, not even bothering to think about your actions? Are you smothering your friends with affection by encouraging them you'll be there for them, while you don't even have the audacity to listen to what they have to say? Look up from that freakin' Instagram post and join the world. It's calling for you.
"See to it, then, that the light within you is not darkness."-Luke 11:35
Take some advice from Luke.
I will not be someone who puts on a show. I will not be someone who is that; I will not be with
someone who is like that. For my younger friends, I want to come back from college and I want to still be that inspiration I was before I left. I want to come back to Estes different, but stronger. And I want you to go out into the world and I want you to be a light. Don't be like the world!
"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve God's what will is- his good, pleasing and perfect will." -Romans 12:2
As we grow older, we must realize it's never too late to start over. No one is perfect. But what you allow, is what will continue.
Give up on people who bring you down. Who truly inspires you? Look to God as the ultimate example. Be more like Christ.
As we grow older, we must not lose hope in this truly sucky world. It's a battle between popular or inspiring; unity or conformity. We are forever getting closer to love, closer to home, closer to God.
Also, look up these songs, loves!
"Our Life Is Like A Party" by Besides Daniel
"High" by Young Rising Sons
"Brand New Day" by Trevor Hall
"I Lived" by OneRepublic
"Can't Break Her Fall" by Mat Kearney
"Robbers" by The 1975
"Iris (Hold Me Close)" by U2
"You Are Enough" by Sleeping At Last
"You Are More" by Tenth Avenue North
"I've Given Up On You" by Real Friends
I don't necessarily have regrets, because I think all of my bad moments have led me to the person I am today and I am thankful for that. But I wish I talked to my youth leader about how (and if I could) to be an inspiration in the wake of me being nominated and winning what is so inaccurately seen as a popularity contest. I never did. But if I inspired, you, if you are reading this, then I would be so incredibly happy. I believe in the concept of unity, not conformity. If you are like the world, then you will never change it. If you help an individual see your light, then they can pass their light to another. In this sense, we are unified. We are one, while still retaining our individuality.
So, without becoming too hippy-ish, I believe in this concept. I believe by letting the Holy Spirit guide our steps, we become fulfilled. We are living our lives to our fullest potential, whether that is staying in a small house raising a family in a town in Kansas, to going to college in Oregon and buying a beach house and not getting married, to traveling the world on mission trips, to whatever and wherever. God's plan for us is so beautiful and so amazing that we can't comprehend what will happen until it already has; until we look back and say, "Wow, I was in a rough spot, but here I am now. It gets better."
My goal is to be a light.
I know from personal experience that people disappoint. You hear, "When I go off to college, I won't forget you." You believe they'll come back stronger: different, yet stronger. Yet, when you see them again, they're the person they said they'd never become. Are you really living your life according to who you tell people you are? Are you going to church on Sundays, only to be vomiting up vodka in a bathroom stall the next night? Are you telling your youth pastor you're getting closer to God, while you hook up with girls on weekends, not even bothering to think about your actions? Are you smothering your friends with affection by encouraging them you'll be there for them, while you don't even have the audacity to listen to what they have to say? Look up from that freakin' Instagram post and join the world. It's calling for you.
"See to it, then, that the light within you is not darkness."-Luke 11:35
Take some advice from Luke.
I will not be someone who puts on a show. I will not be someone who is that; I will not be with
someone who is like that. For my younger friends, I want to come back from college and I want to still be that inspiration I was before I left. I want to come back to Estes different, but stronger. And I want you to go out into the world and I want you to be a light. Don't be like the world!
"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve God's what will is- his good, pleasing and perfect will." -Romans 12:2
As we grow older, we must realize it's never too late to start over. No one is perfect. But what you allow, is what will continue.
Give up on people who bring you down. Who truly inspires you? Look to God as the ultimate example. Be more like Christ.
As we grow older, we must not lose hope in this truly sucky world. It's a battle between popular or inspiring; unity or conformity. We are forever getting closer to love, closer to home, closer to God.
Also, look up these songs, loves!
"Our Life Is Like A Party" by Besides Daniel
"High" by Young Rising Sons
"Brand New Day" by Trevor Hall
"I Lived" by OneRepublic
"Can't Break Her Fall" by Mat Kearney
"Robbers" by The 1975
"Iris (Hold Me Close)" by U2
"You Are Enough" by Sleeping At Last
"You Are More" by Tenth Avenue North
"I've Given Up On You" by Real Friends
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